You have to start somewhere......

Few people know this about me but ~ I WANT TO RUN!

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"Away?" you may ask. No, I just want to run. I want to experience that runner's high that comes from feeling the pavement beneath my feet, the sweat on my face, my arms pumping along with the beat of the pulsing music coming from my iPod, the knowledge that this feeling is far better than any that could come from sitting on the couch eating some chips!

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Remember being a kid and that carefree, no-holds-barred, running we used to do ~ to our friends house, playing tag & kickball & hide & seek with all the neighborhood kids, and just for the fun of it? I want that feeling back!

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Just thinking about it makes me smile ~ makes me want to put on my shoes and take to the streets! Why don't I? Let me tell you: I've spent the past way-too-many years making choices that now hinder me from doing this thing that I love and yearn to do! -FOR NOW! I aim to change all that starting today!

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The reason people may not know about this secret passion of mine is because I've hidden it from the world. I've been ashamed to say out loud that it's what I want. I was afraid someone hearing it would take one look at me and laugh at the absurdity of it! But why shouldn't I run? Why shouldn't I take part in this thing that I want to do SOO badly? There's no reason why! That's what I've finally figured out! If I'm not running it's because of me! Because of choices I've made! No one else is stopping me from running! If I want to run, I have to be willing to GET UP, willing to GET OUTSIDE, willing to TAKE THAT FIRST STEP, and willing to KEEP ON GOING! Maybe I can only run a few steps my first time out ~ that's OK! It all starts with a single step!

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I've created this blog mostly for me ~ to hold me accountable, to keep me inspired, to keep me focused. Any maybe to be of some help to others who are looking to make changes in their own lives. My goal is that this won't be one more thing that I start but do not finish. I'm tired of failing at my own hand, tired of being held back (by my evil side, cause I know my good side wouldn't do this!), tired of starting something and not going all the way! I deserve better! I deserve a me that does what's best for me! I am going to quiet that mean little voice that tells me I can't do it and let the one that says I CAN have the reins!

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My promise to myself (and to you if you're reading this) is to be honest about both my successes and failures. I'm realistic enough to realize that there wouldn't be any mountains without any valleys. Some days are going to be better than others. But if I can't stand up to my failures, I'll never beat them back. By looking them in the eye I can have the hope of defeating them to make room for more success!

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As this blog progresses I'll be getting into more of my steps and my goals. But in a nutshell it's this: Start with walking, being able to walk to the track, have walking to the track become my warm up, walk/run on the track, run on the track, and warm up-run on the track-walk home as cool down.

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If you are reading this please feel free to comment! On anything, about anything, etc! I'd love to hear about what you are doing to make positive changes in your life and for your health! Maybe we can help each other and support each other!

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Those shoes in the picture on the header of this blog are my new Nike Shox ~ custom created by me, for me, and to get me moving! Knowing that they say "Becky Will Run" are like wings on my feet ~ propelling me forward as I strive to reach my goal!

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I know that I can't go out right now and *run* but I DO KNOW that by getting up, by walking, by speed walking, by taking it one day at a time, that - BECKY WILL RUN!